My Eyes T.T

Just like doctor say,my right eyes is almost blind effect of born under not enough months.I was totally shocked when the doctor said my right eyes can be said is blind. I can't accept this no matter i knew my eyes is totally different with others people,they can see with their 1 pair of eyes but i just see by 1 of my eyes.I can't even have my driving test too. You don't know how much i admire my sister. She can have driving test, born under good condition......Thus, i don't know how is the feel of using both eyes to see the world and driving on the road.I know i can't experienced it forever.I tried to act natural when i heard this news. I have try to ask doctor if i can do any surgery or not for my eyes,he said its too late,i felt disappointed at the moment.At the same moment,i asked myself,am i the unlucky one?Why i should born with this defects?why not others?Because of this,i not dare to stare people longer, not dare to look at people who passed by me. It is so suffer to face this situation.Do you know my feeling?I don't think so.I write this is not want to blame or what,i just want to share my own experienced since nobody i can share,even if there is somebody to share,i don't think i can say out like i write at blog.Anyway, i have to stay strong to grow up & face with this fact too.Please bless me & thanks god for let me born in a healthy family although my father had passed away since i was 2 years old but i still have a lovely & wonderful family & friends.

Do u had used to face me ?