^Holiday Mood^

Tomorrow is Public Holiday yo~~~

Everyone is having his/her holiday include U too <3

Did u have any plan yet?Just take a rest at home?

I guess that u sure have your own plan already since i got some information le,keke.

But i wonder will u join or not ler?

By the way, i didn't have any plan yet so i hope to see you again @.@

God, please make my wish come true bah,TQ^^ 

*MIRACLE*

Honestly,i had fall in love with you since the very first time we met.

But too bad, its just a short distance to look out you.

That time i was curious if u have a girlfriend or not?

After the 2nd time we met, i was so happy & felt unbelievable,we met again!!!

Although we not much talk or even never talk,but i know u like to talk(talkative & friendly).

Within my 1st impression, u're a helpful & smart guy. You like to joking & make people laugh, oh,u're so attractive.

We met again.

You say 'Hi' to me & it make me warm.

Along the journey, it was much grateful that you're joining together. You made my day.

In the middle-ing, it was a miracle for me. I cant even express what feeling should i have.（暗笑）

I like the way you talk although it so stupid,but i just felt like 'oh, thanks god for letting you appear again'.

I hope we can start from be a friends. 

I don't know how your impression to me,maybe just a normal girl.

However, i am just a simple girl that sometimes felt inferiority with myself.

But i know i have to stay stronger to have a better life.

I am waiting you right here^^

0 mark

Today we have a account in class assignment,its about budgeting & i totally hang about this chapter..haha
this was my first time i blank the paper and stuck for half hour,i also felt funny with this.. 
i never do this before,miss also laugh when i told her i didn't do at all..
Anyway,what i lost,i will try my best to take it back..
For the test 2 and final exam,i have to work hard to take a good result,at least take a credit lol,but accounting 2 really hard,so i just hope i can pass it..
God bless me please~

without me & without you~

Without me,you will be more happy~

Without me,you will be more independent~

Without me,you will be more freedom~

Without you,i will be more sad~

Without you,i will be more dependent~

Without you,i will be more lonely~

This is because I used to have your presence, used to have your message, used to have your concern, used to have your dependent, used to become your everything~

But now,i lose everything,i lose your trustfulness to me, i lose your expectation to me......

Everything happened out of my expectation,i don't know whose problem is it,but i 

can sure that i am the one who messed up everything,

i am so sorry about it.

I don't hope you can forgive me, 

i just hope i can see your smile appear on your face everyday,

that enough for me~
God bless you for everything that you do & as your friend,

i will support you at the back~

天真的我

天真的我，曾以为我能改变你。其实也不算什么改变，只是说可能帮找回你自己，忘掉那些不好的回忆，可是当我收到你的信息时，我就知道我错了，把我跟他比，我？只是小角色。

当你第一次跟我分享你们的事情得时侯，我就知道我不能退缩了。我试着慢慢去领听你的心声，你的委屈，你的一切不快乐，慢慢的，我已习惯有你的存在了。每一天，看到你不开心，我的心里都很不舒服，又是他让你掉泪了。我不知能帮到什么，只好默默守护你，给你时间，忘掉过去。

这几个月里，为了他，你流尽了眼泪，受尽了委屈，样样的做不好，还弄到要去看医生，你真的让大家担心了。时间一天一天的过去，我又一天又一天看见了你的笑容，我的心也跟着开心起来了。对于一个只会让你掉泪的人，肯本不值得你为了他让我们每一个人都担心。因为小小的一件事，都会让你把自己关起来，我叫你试着去相信他，你却说你没那个信心了，好，我选择尊重你的决定，一路陪你走下去，我已当作你忘了他了，忘掉那些让你伤痕累累的记忆。

直到11.11.11，我心淡了，失望了，没力气了。

你告诉我，其实他还在你心里，一直以来你们的心还是在一起，肯本没放下过，到了某些时侯，你们还会选择走在一起，我。。。。。。无话可说。

原来，我这一路来对你的所作所为，到头来只是一片空白！！！你还是要让自己走回以前的路，把自己搞得伤痕累累。

我没力气了，真的放弃了，原来所有的一切一切，只是我的一厢情愿。我肯本什么都不是，你让我彻底的失望了。不要说我看不开，把我们的关系弄到很僵。事实上，我真的接受不到，我没你那么放得开，我是一个有感情的人，对我而言，不是每件事你说我能忘记就忘记，但这对你也没什么不便，因为我不算什么，你的决定已是死刑了，不是吗？我的一句话，也不能改变什么。

接下来的日子，我不知你是否还需要我的安慰，毕竟，他已取代我了。接下来的一切，我只能说，你要对你自己所做的决定，对自己负责。没的怨人，没的自暴自弃，因为这是你自己选的路。

虽然很不想说出口，可是还是想对你说，祝你幸福快乐，保重了。
（这纯粹是我的心声，你大可别放在心上，像我常跟你说的，时间能证明一切，也会冲淡一切。无论我们变得怎样，我希望那也不会影响我们的友情，因为我始终觉得友情胜过一切，抱歉，让你心痛了）

15.3.2011

2day we finished english claz early because ms had a bad sore throat.After that,we took our lunch at City Mall,The cross...the food quite nice and the price also acceptable,not really expensive..hee..

After we ate,we had a walk around the city mall and buy some sweets to eat during housekeeping practical later..haha

We were being asked to do the cleaning part,such as wiped the window, washed toilet and mop the floor..I am very happy that my group were very cooperate and we are happy to stay in this group too...

Same as the english claz,we finished claz early.I go to meet my christine jie to buy mask,haha...because i was attractive with that. I had bought 2 pieces of mask from her,which is '我的美丽日记' brand...I heard this brand before that that are very good n deserved.

After i finish my bath, i started to do masking..I felt fresh after using this new mask,haha..thx jie....^^

<3

Be alert^^

A nuclear power plant in Fukumi, Japan exploded at 4:30 AM today. If it rains tomorrow or later, don't go outside. If you are outside, be sure that you have rain protectors. It's acid rain. Don't let it touch you. You may burn your skin, lose your hair or have cancer. This message made everyone felt afraid and scary. Hope everyone protect yourself and be aware of that.It is a serious matter......

Darling^^

The day before yesterday, emily,vivian and mirra came to stay at my home, Papar...This was their 1st time except for Mirra...haha,she knew well with my home position already,right?wakaka...Our objective is doing our english assgnment which nedd to prresent on monday and also do the housekeeping test revision...

We took picture since boring do the assignment,haha....happy2 cz i like to take picture..

Another unexpected choice^^

We started to sms and chating recently...we try to know each other by asking this n that..........n sumtimes his concern make me felt happy and felt that i'm being care....this was my another 1st time after broke down with my ex.....thx for that,i hope we can know more about each other.....n let evrything goes naturally....

Long trip

5 more hours,i will be in the flight already,yuhuu~

I will depart on 6.55am and arrive Johor Bahru on 9.10am if there are no delay,i hope no..

I think my bro will be the one who go airport to pick me.

Hmm,my sis will take care of my popo at hospital until 2mrw morning..

I hope she will get well soon.

My mum and aunt will go JB on this wednesday,and i will foloow my bro them go to KL on tuesday,hmm,just stay 1 day at JB.

I am not sure if how long i will stay at KL,because my bro them will go to genting on 7-9 of Jan,i think to join them,but if really have specific reason and situation,i think i can't join lol..hmm,hope everything is going smooth..

God bless my popo and all of my family..^^

好久没联络他了

最近都很少找他了，是因为要成全他们还是自己不敢面对现实呢？

我有几次都很想主动找他聊天，但有怕打扰到他和不放便，

即使他不说，我也觉得他只是不想我失望，而选择答应我的。我不喜欢这样的感觉。

我不知他对我的感觉，但我却很清楚我的感觉。

每天睡前睡醒都会想起他，做每件事都以他为中心，每次都想找他聊天，难道这不是爱是什么呢？

还是我放假没事做而胡思乱想？我不知~

对他，或许我只是个可谈心的而不可谈爱的朋友吧~

无论如何，我只会把这心结放在心里。

即使说了出来，虽然让我知道了答案，但却伤了大家的友情，何必呢，我不想冒这个险~

A sudden trip

Last night my sister-in law and brother asked me if i want to follow them go KL or not after visiting grandma at JB on next monday.Hee,i think and think,finally,i said yes...Because i think even though i stay at JB,i also have nothing to do,the main point is my grandma de disease,i hope she can stay longer,because doctor said she has no more oxegen already and just wait time..>.<

I will take monday morning geh flight to JB..hee,take flight alone again,yuhuu...nice experience,just the different place only..

My 2 brother,sister-in law and sister will go JB on tis sunday by bus.

On next Tuesday,i will follow them go KL by bus again,hee..hope it will be a nice trip.

If can,maybe think to cook forthem,hmm,because all of them will be busy with work and i stay at home be the chef..haha...not lah..just a joke..

Actually 15 of Dec,i have a appointment with doctor to medical check for my eyes.Every year i also need to go hospital de,mybe this year have to postpone it,because have to take care my grandma.

Anyway,it not a matter.Just enjoy my trip happily and god bless my grandma too..

Happy holiday

Yuhuu,the exam finally finished..

I am free now.

Any vacation?

I want to play play play.

1 month holiday,what can i do?

I think to work.but don't want at hotel de.

Maybe just a restaurant or else,

because work at banquet department is so tiring even though 1 hour at least can get rm3.

20.10.2010

yeaterday my frenz n i went out to watch movie at Suria Sabah..

We finished claz on 10am.

After tat,we went Suria by bus,haha..this is our 3rd time take bus together,hmm,nice....

After we bought the movie ticket,we walked to Wisma took lunch at there.

But b4 tat,i had bought a new sim card,haha,Digi Easy Prepaid..i like it..

We took our lunch at Food court,cz there are nothing to eat at there,hmm...

After a few hours shopping,we walked back to Suria and find some games to play,wakaka,we walked in to the fun square and play the race car.

Since itwas still early,we took some picture,hee,we act as the actor of those movie,haha,,really funny.

Despite of tat,i was so expect with the 3D mvie,cz it was my 1st time,wakaka...

The movie was started..

I wore the spec tat being given,hee,but i didnt c ant different for tat lah..

Anyway,enjoyed it..

Fruit carving

I was join in the ICS fiesta competition last saturday.

The competition started at 8.30am,but because of the chef from other hotels not yet arrive,so the competition had been postponed.

After the chef arrived,we started to carve,i was very nervous because the 2 chef are from the hotel and they were very professional.It is so scary if they keep watching at me..haha...

I used honeydew to carve and also half of the watermelon to be the demo.

When the time the judge said we just left 50 minutes,i was very nervous,because i not yet finished carve my honeydew and the watermelon.

I made it fastly.

I hoped i can finish it on time.

Luckily i done it on time,and there still have time..haha

Actually i wasn't unsatisfied with my product,it was not enough perfect.

If can,i want to make it perfectly.

Anyway,glad that i can make it,because this was my first time..

I was get number 4th from this competition,means consolation..

Haha,i was sos happy....

I got a cup for that..i put in on my home"s cupboard..

Expect^^

2mrw my friends and i plan to go to watch "The Child"s eyes"...wow...they say watching in 3D lagi tiam,omg...it is very scary..Those ghost walk in front u and seem want to go through u...btw,i think it will so excite and acsry..
Anyway,i'm waiting for that.
After that,my friend asked me to stay at her house after watch movie,i think soo,because i not dare to sleep alone at home after watch that,n my home no people also,my mum them go KL on 2mrw morning..
Hmm,i haven't decide if i want to stay or not,cz she has family again,paiseh oo...
Anyway,smooth wind to my mum them on 2mrw morning..
And to me too,on friday...
Hope everything is ok,cz it is my 1t time takes the plane alone...

Mix

Actually today my friend invites me to her birthday party geh.
But unfortunately my mother goes to kuching today,so i cant join,sorry ah mei chen and happy birthday to you oo^^
Later will go to eat pizza hut with my friend,haha...because there have nothing to eat again around putatan,haix..pity oo...
This situation will continuous for few weeks oo..wakao... will die o like tat...
But luckily 2 weeks from now,i will go to KL..can relax a while..haha..
This thursday my brother and sister-in law will have thier 'guo da li'..erm,don't know how they feel now?
Nervous,excited?haha..they just know
My mum went to kuching on today lol,later back all house just me only..haha
Free lol...
I can sleep at my mum room and watch watever television programme that i wish..
Just now went to eat pizza hut with my friends.
We had order a sensasi which have i pan of pizza,spaghetti,2 glass of pepsi,2 bowl of mushroom soup and 6 pieces of garlic bread.
After that,i have order a a la carte of spaghetti again,wow...really much.
But never mind lol,not everyday eat also.
.Now waiting for 3pm geh moral class,haix..damn suck every weeks wait like this,i think will die o..
Everyday face to the laptop and online...
What can do,INTI management makes people felt mad..
We have invite a chef to give us a carving demo.
This is because this saturday we gonna have a fiesta competition.
I have join the friut carving categories,but actually i don't know anything about carving.
But luckily,my mum know some of carving,then will ask for her help.
I ask her to teach me about the watermelon carving.
Because she had done it before.
Hope i can learn it completely by this friday,because this thursday she just back here from kuching,i scare i still don't know the skill.
Anyway,good luck for me yaa...

lonely

My mum will go to Kuching from tomorrow until Thursday..hmm,i will be alone for 3 days..huhu..gud or bad?wakaka....eat myself,sleep myself,wake up myself....hmm...i think is ok..just felt lonely only lah..haha...
Hope nothing will happen this few days lol..if not,i scare i cant handle....god bless me^^ 

If got any plan,then difference story already,wakaka...

Think to go shopping wor,haha...

Plan,plan,plan......

Friend,family&Lover

In this world,family,friends and lover are the person that we will meet  and have.

But among them,which are the most important,more impoartant and important for you?

If u ask me,i will say family is the first,friends is the second and lover is the third important person in my life.

If i ask some of my friends,they will say the same things like me,but after that,they change their mind,same like if have a lover,friends are nothing for them.This kind of things i already used to.

But if u ask me if i will do the same things like them,i can strictly say 'NO'.

This is because i use my heart to make a friends,not like others people just know to utilize friends but not sincere to make a friends.I hate this kind of people.
Even though i already couple,i also wont let him treat my frineds badly,and he also can't control me to find a friends.
Boyfriends can find back if break off,but if freinds,it can not easily find,so,i will cherish all of my friends.

Luckily,i didn't meet this kind of people,if not,i will hate them forever.

My mum and my sis said i put my frineds at the first before my family same as my second brother.

Haha,is this called sibling?

I didn't deny it because i also can felt like that.

I don't know why,but mybe that is my personality.

Nobody can change it.

I love my freinds ver much same as my famliy.

If one day my friends betray me,i don't know how i would.

Either angry,forgive or act as nothing?

But i can say that,if i really angry with one of my friends,i can very angry until i don't want speak with him/her.

I can't face with them anymore when i think back what they done to me.

Anyway,i am very happy to have a friends like u guys and i will appreciate what i have and cherish it...

weird

Hmm,juz now my mum suddenly called me.

I think she said she comes to fetch me later.

Haha,mana tau...she said another things.

She suddenly told me that someone told her i seem like have boyfriend..

Then i said huh?

Actually was the things that i wrote in my facebook which is so sensitive.

But i can say that they were so sensitive,haha..

Those words just so related only,but not those love2 one..haha.

But anyway,thanks for wondering..

After that,my mum advised me 'if i want to paktoh,u can..but make sure your studies might not be influence,and must all clear pass..

wow,when i heard this,i was shocked.

But totally agree what she said lah..

Because we are still student,if we think to have a relationship,we have to maintain both.

Then i answer her,okok,no problem....haha...

Just think to say,no matter what u guys see at my status,don't be so curious,because i like to write those things geh..

And i will be fine also..

Thanks for caring<3